Wednesday, December 31, 2008

Slacker

Yeah, been pretty slack about writing on here lately. Honestly, I feel like I've been so damn busy I just want to sit on my couch like a bump on a log, not bang away on my keyboard. Heck, I've hardly even been home enough to sit on my couch. Left for MA last week on Tuesday night. I did have a good time, don't get me wrong, but I will NEVER EVER spend 16 HOURS in a CAR with my family AGAIN. NEVER. Even though I was back here in NC on Sunday, I spent pretty much the entire day with my BGF (Best Guy Friend) and his wife watching football. And even though I didn't hang out with anyone on Monday night, I was doing laundry, cleaning up, and there was a trip to the grocery store in there. Last night after trivia was my first chance to just sit on my couch and relax. Tonight I'm sure I'll be doing something to ring in the New Year...just not sure what, yet! So...let's see, that means tomorrow night is me & couch time. Woohoo!

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

We Made It

So the family and I have made it to Massachusetts without killing one another. I am glad, from the moment I walked in the door I was a happy girl getting to see everyone. It was fun to sit around and chat and be made fun of by everyone. Some of the guys like to give me a hard time, encouraging me to hurry up on the baby making. My grandparents only have one great-grandchild, and the guys think it's up to me to give them another. My poor mom, every time she walked into the room my cousins were giving me "advice" on how to score with a guy. They don't even care if there's any type of relationship - they just want me to have a baby. Why do I have to do all of the work...what's wrong with them knocking up some chick? Sheesh...us girls have to do everything!

Tuesday, December 23, 2008

Merry Christmas!

I know it's a little early but I do hope everyone has a very merry Christmas! I'm not going to say I'm not looking forward to mine, it's the traveling I'm not excited about. When I get off of work I leave for MA. For a 14 hour car ride with my parents and my brother. Good grief I'm going to die. I'm thinking I'd rather be drug out into the streets and beaten. We can hardly ride to dinner the 4 of us, and now we have to spend how long in a car together?! And to think I wanted to fly, but Mom made me feel guilty because she was going to have to ride by herself. I think deep down there is a small part of me that wants to stay home and be left alone.

Monday, December 22, 2008

That Bad?

So I'm still working to get over whatever little bug is bothering me today, and I thought I was doing pretty good! But out of the 8 calls I've had so far, 7 people have told me to get better!

Thursday, December 18, 2008

I'm Up!

Since having the ol' tonsils removed my sleep schedule has been totally screwed up. It's about this time every night when my second wind kicks in and I am wide awake. Yesterday I came home from work and crashed, but I had too. I'm toying with the idea of getting sick. Last night when I got home I was aching so bad all over, my head was pounding, and my throat was hurting. I took a nap which ended up with me sleeping from about 6:00 - 8:45. When I woke up I was pretty dazed and felt like I could just crawl into my bed and sleep on through the night. But I figured that was way too much sleep so I should try and eat some dinner and stay up a bit. I was talking to a friend later on last night about how I probably screwed myself with the whole nap, and maybe I should take something to help me get some sleep. I had a some of my hydrocodone left from my surgery, so I took it because it used to help me sleep. Nope...not last night. I felt groggy and out of it, but would I fall asleep? Hell no...not until after 5:00 this morning, and my alarm goes off at 6:15. Nice! And the craziest thing of all? I'm wide awake right now. I think at some point my body is just going to crash and burn at the rate I'm going. Sigh...guess I have to have some sort of excitement, right?

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

Real Quick

Just wanted to let you guys know disaster averted with the whole insurance thing. Yesterday I went to HR and asked what's up with my insurance being terminated. The HR lady pulled up my info online and my medical insurance was still intact. But she called Cigna and for some reason, unknown to everyone, the pharmacy portion of the insurance was canceled. The Cigna chick was going to re-enable it, then call the HR chick and let her know when it was ready, and she would in turn call me. Well, no one called but I stopped by Target last night and just asked them to run it and see if it would go through, and it did so I got my drugs. So I think I'm all set. Which is awesome because I feel like shit right now, and with my luck I'll need more drugs soon. Aren't I supposed to be feeling better?

Saturday, December 13, 2008

Just A Fluke?

Sigh...I hope this is not a sign of an impending headache. I went to Target today to pick up 2 prescriptions, and the girl asked me if anything with my insurance had changed, or if I had gotten a new card. I told her no, it's the same insurance and I think that I'll be getting a new card, but I don't have one yet. She then proceeded to tell me they tried to file with the insurance company, but yay! According to the insurance company my coverage has been terminated!

I really hope it's just a computer glitch along the line somewhere and it just affected Target. I got a statement from the hospital the other day asking me to verify all of my information because they're going to submit the claim for my tonsillectomy to the insurance company soon. I just want this to all go through as it should. I told want to have to argue with anyone along the way.

I did check online and my coverage appears active. I tried to call Cigna, but it took almost 10 minutes into their automated menu before I found out their office is closed on the weekend. Ugh.

Thursday, December 11, 2008

Macro Effect

I was playing with camera that belongs to my coworker today. I think the last picture is my favorite!







Wednesday, December 10, 2008

Updates

I was going to say not a lot's been going on, but today is the first day in while I've sat at home with not a lot to do. Been doing some Christmas shopping, watching some football, and working.

I visited the ENT today for my post-surgery followup. I thought she'd tell me I looked great, would give the a pat on the back and send me on my way. Almost happened, but not quite. She was happy to see me smiling - the last time we spoke I had blood running down the back of my throat. She said things look good, but there's still some swelling back there. She asked how I was feeling, and I told her good but my sleep schedule is still screwed up. I've quit taking naps after work, but I am still up and getting my second wind around 11:00. And yet I'm dead ass tired the next day. She wasn't too worried, but expects that to change. I also said I sometimes choke a little when I drink, but she said that's normal. I feel like I really have to concentrate on swallowing. I can't drink continuously from a glass, and I hate drinking with a straw. It's almost like I feel like I'm exaggerating the swallowing process. My throat just needs to learn to close more. Eh, we'll get there. I have to go back in 6 weeks, unless I feel fantastic. She said I had a rough recovery, but most of that can be attributed to going back to work so soon. However, if in 6 weeks I do go back and things still look swollen, they're sticking a scope down my throat. ACK!

What else...work is work, shopping is expensive, and I love football!

Friday, December 5, 2008

Can You Read?

My morning has gotten off on the wrong foot. No, that's not true...it started just fine, but then callers have made it go downhill. Maybe I'm just a little too happy it's Friday, and I'm already in weekend mode? Person calls, says they can't log into their machine. Could be quite a few reasons for that so I say, "Can you read me the error message?" And the response is something like "oh you know blah blah contact your administrator!" Am I not phrasing the question properly? Maybe I should be saying "Tell me exactly what it says on your screen. I want you to read the message word for word exactly as it appears and do not leave out a single syllable. Can you do that?"

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

Went For A Walk

A blog that I follow had an entry about a photo project the author had read about on the internet. The idea is to take a photo every 100 steps. I thought it was a neat idea, and I liked the interesting pictures she was able to take on her walk. But, like her, I got sick of counting my steps. Besides, I realized I don't get very far in 100 steps. Damn these little legs! But here's some of what I saw:





Tuesday, December 2, 2008

Rough Day - Again

Man, I'm not sure what crawled up my butt, but today wasn't so swell. Wait a minute...I'm totally lying. I know what's wrong - the economy. I work in the public sector...I assumed that meant job security. No, things aren't THAT bad right now, but all the talk of hiring freezes and extending them, kinda makes it hard to move around in the workplace. And then the mention of layoffs...who likes that?

Saturday, November 29, 2008

HAHA!!

You'll have to click on the picture to see it better, but holy crap I thought it was hilarious. BagelDave sent me a link to a picture on Flickr, and it stopped me with a screen that said it fell outside of my safe filter, and it had a button to continue on to viewing the picture. So I did, and I could see why there was a warning, a little bit of nudity. But check out what was at the top of the page:


Ha ha! I thought that was a riot! Unfortunately due to some user error on my part I wasn't able to see if the button actually took me to some kittens - I closed the damn tab!

Friday, November 28, 2008

Nice Day?

Did everyone have a nice Thanksgiving yesterday? Honestly, I didn't. It was weird. Part of it is just me being off - I still don't feel like my normal self yet. I get so tired after barely doing any activity. The other part was actually spending Thanksgiving day with my family; this is the first time in 4 years I've done that. The last 3 Thanksgiving I've spent with GravyDave. I've always had to work the day after Thanksgiving, so I just stayed in town to be with my him, and then I'd go to Mom's on the weekend. This year I felt like I was on lockdown. We did the food thing, I hung out with my best friend Jackie, and then I was at a loss on what else to do. No way in hell was I going out shopping today. Screw that, there's nothing I wanted that bad (except maybe an Xbox, but whatever I still wasn't getting up). Usually when I go to my mom's we go out shopping, have lunch, hang out at the house, and then maybe shop some more. But no, this time is was being at home. And that was it. It felt like prison. And we were actually all getting along...

This Is Me Lately

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Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Slacker

On my way home from work tonight I stopped and had my eyebrows waxed. I hadn't been keeping up with them lately, and I figured I'll let someone else tame them and get me back in line to maintain them. As I was driving there, I thought to myself, why not have a girly night. Get the brows waxed, then go home, do a home facial, soak my feet and paint my toe nails...all sorts of girly fun stuff. But now that I'm home...I am feeling so lazy. You know, I could stop typing right now and get my footbath ready. Oh okay...back in a minute!

Oooo...feels so nice, the warm waters and the bubbles! I just hope I can keep this motivation going! I've just felt so lazy lately. I'll admit, part of it is just being so worn out from all that's happened in the last 2 weeks. Today is the first day that I haven't crashed out in a nap on the couch after work. Cross your fingers I make it until bedtime! The eyes are feeling heavy though. I have found myself stuck in that nasty cycle that I don't sleep well at night so I end up napping during the day for too long, and as a result I don't sleep well at night. Maybe this will be my turning point.

Things have been getting better. My eating habits are almost back to normal. I'm still not in the mood for milk - I have that yucky sick taste in my mouth, and that's just not cool with milk. Also, the bubbles in soda are a bit much. Oh well, do I really need a soda? Quite a few people even commented that I looked and sounded like I was feeling better. Just in time for the holiday break!

So, anyone got big plans for Thanksgiving? Is anyone braving the crowds and shopping on Black Friday? I'll be at Mom's for Thanksgiving...and that's all I have planned so far!

Sunday, November 23, 2008

Wow

I just don't even know where to begin with my feelings on this one. I was at lunch the other day with a friend, and a story came up about tech support. He was dealing with a server issue and ended up calling Microsoft's tech support. As soon as the tech support representative answered, he hung up, simply because it was a woman that answered the phone. He called back, got a guy, and was happy. I was appalled by his actions, and he explained that the last two times he's had to call for help and spoke with women, they weren't able to solve the problem. He knew that he'd run into a tough situation, and he didn't feel like wasting his time talking to a woman when he'd just have to call back. I just couldn't believe the words coming out of his mouth. As a female in the IT industry, I felt like I had been stabbed in the heart. Never before have someone's words made me feel so worthless. I don't even know if I can put into words how crushed I feel. It's like he's taken my livelihood and made it feel so pointless. Replaying the conversation brings tears to my eyes and sickens my stomach. Now I realize that's his opinion and he's quite entitled to it, but I just have a hard time swallowing it. Moreover, I...I...augh! I can't even get words out - the little Kim in my mind feels so upset she's just standing there, fists clenched, screaming and crying all at the same time. And it hurts so much more coming from a friend and a coworker. A coworker!

*Update* - So of course I've been thinking and thinking about this. I think I figured out that it bothers me so much because I feel like he must not respect me professionally. And if he lacks respect for me in the workplace, how can he have any for me outside of it?

Thursday, November 20, 2008

A Little Setback

So the other day Erin asked how long how it would take to heal. To be honest, I'm not really sure. I remember my doctor saying the first week would be rough. I had read online that it would be 7-10 days, 10-14 days, but I don't remember my doctor saying anything specific. Well today the bleeding started up again, and it was the worse it's ever been. I wasn't sure if I was overreacting, but I finally broke down and called the doctor's office. I had to leave a message for the nurse, and per their recording I wouldn't get a phone call until tomorrow. Well, a nurse did call me back to get more details about the situation. She reassured me this was normal, but she wanted to talk to the doctor to find out exactly what I should do next.

About 20 minutes later my doctor called me. She gave me some new instructions - stick with cold. For the next 24 hours cold drink and cold food. If the bleeding starts gently gargle with cold water and/or suck on ice cubes. She asked how much bleeding there was, stuff like that. Then she asked if I was home alone. I couldn't lie, I told her no I wasn't alone, because I was at work. Boy that was the wrong thing to say! So then more doctor's orders: go home. Go home and do nothing. No puttering around the house, no pushing the vacuum, nothing. I am to sit around, kick back, and RELAX. The most energy I need to put out is when I'm walking to get myself something to eat or drink. Or changing the channel with the remote. So if anyone needs me, I'll be on the couch with my new buddy, Duncan:



He was waiting for me on my desk when I went back to work. I named him after my doctor. Even though things might be kind of rough now, I'm confident it will be worth it in the end!

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

SO Tired

So I did go back to work today. Holy crap was it rough! When I got home I slept from 7:00 - 9:00 and I am still beat. And in pain. My throat is hurting. Sigh...it was good to see everyone. It felt good - as soon as I walked in the door everyone was excited that I was back. But that also meant a lot of people that wanted to talk! Jackass coworker did come over at one point to talk to me, and he actually ended up being nice to me! Shocking I know!! He was there when another friend asked how the pain was, and did they give me anything for it. I told him I'm in constant pain...that I don't notice when I swallow and it does hurt, because that's the norm. I take notice when I swallow and it doesn't hurt. I think Jackass actually listened and was much nicer to me afterwards.

*Warning* gross details ahead: I think things will get noticeably better when I start sleeping better. Last night was one of my worst nights so far. Bleeding is normal, and even more so when you're not drinking enough. I was sleeping like the dead last night, when suddenly I could feel it. The blood was just running down the back of my throat. The taste was awful...I hopped up and headed to the bathroom and spit. At first I wasn't sure that I was bleeding, but oh yeah, I was. It was awful, I could feel it running down the back of my throat, with no way to make it stop. I spit out what I could, which was unnerving to see the mouthfuls of red in the sink. I tried to drink some gatorade, which did help. I think drinking in general helps it stop. But that was my entertainment from 2 - 4 this morning. I even spit out a bloodclot. Holy crap was that disgusting.

Sunday, November 16, 2008

Not Ready Yet

I'm just not ready to go back to work. My tummy troubles are now pretty much nonexistent - thank God! The pain is the one thing I'm still having a hard time dealing with. I haven't made it to the point where it doesn't hurt more often than not. Hmm, that sentence is confusing. It's fair to say that it still hurts 95% of the time when I swallow. Now, it's not ungodly pain where I just want to keel over and die, but it does hurt. Shit, it hurts even when I don't swallow. I think I've done more talking today than I have in a long time. My absolutely awesome friend Jennifer came to visit me today (and bring me soup!), and we chatted it up for a few hours. After that I went and watched football with some friends, and did my fair share of talking there, too. The result - pain in my throat, neck, and ears. How am I ever going to make it through work? Granted, I think (or at least I hope) I'll be able to do other things that don't require that I be on the phones and talking, but I'll have to talk nonetheless...people have apparently missed me! And of course I do want to talk to them, it's just going to be rough and I'm nervous. Heck, right now if I want to talk to my mom I just call her and she answers the phone saying, "I'll go get on the computer" and we just message back and forth. And it's not just talking that has me nervous about work, it's being up and away from home for more than a few hours. Like when I was watching football today, I could feel myself start to fall asleep. And if I had, I don't think anyone would have cared - they probably would have just let me sleep, but that's me being tired and I was doing nothing but sitting on the couch and occasionally socializing. Guess we'll find out how tough I am on Tuesday. I think I'll have completely run out of sick and vacation time, so I kind of have to go back. Sigh....hopefully I'm worrying about nothing.

Friday, November 14, 2008

More Of The Same

Things over the last few days haven't been much different. My poor little tummy's been on a roller coaster ride, but the vomiting's stopped, so I will not complain! Or at least I'll try not to, this has been rough. I felt terrible for my mom yesterday. She'd been with me throughout everything, and she ended up going home last night. She called to let me know she was home, and she couldn't have called at a worse time. I didn't get sick, but my poor tummy was in knots and I was not in the phone-talking mood! I could tell she was upset, feeling a little helpless that she couldn't do anything. It's okay Mom!

I did think this was funny...Tuesday night my brother called and asked my mom how I was doing, and at the time I was at one of my lower points so my brother said he'd call back with his technical question later. He called back on Wednesday and it just happened to be another time when I wasn't doing so hot, although it was better than I was on Tuesday. Mom jotted down his problem - he could get signed into his Hotmail account, but he couldn't see everything in his inbox, like the page wasn't fully loading. Is a tech support worker's work never done? Brother! I'm sick! Haha...I wrote out a few things for my mom to tell him to do, hoping that would fix the problem. I listened to them talk for a bit, and finally I decided to just suck it up and get on the phone and do the talking myself. How my brother managed to never upgrade his browser is beyond me, but he's good to go now! Just wait until he gets my bill...making me work while sick is going to cost you!

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

Gross Details

Well, things haven't been going so well since my last update. Monday was a very good day. The pain was tolerable and I was drinking like a champ. However, starting yesterday at noon things took a turn for the worse. I didn't sleep all that great Monday night, and I was woken by my phone at 7:22 Tuesday morning when the cable guy called. I bought a sexy new LCD tv on Sunday, and the cable dude wanted to know if he could come by early and setup my box instead of waiting until my scheduled time of 1:00 - 5:00. Lucky for me, but moreso lucky for him that he came by that early. During his scheduled time I was busy sitting in my bathroom on the toilet with a trash can in my hands.

We're not 100% sure what it is wrecking my stomach. At 3:00 this morning I quit taking my heavy-duty pain killer, thinking that might have been what was causing it, but when I threw up this afternoon I figured, nope, that wasn't it. Mom did call my doctor this afternoon and told her what's been going on, so now I'm no longer on my fucking $91 antibiotic. I am on a children's probiotic now. Awesome...children's meds for a child's surgery. The probiotic is meant to "maintain the balance of the intestinal flora." Whatever will keep food & fluids in me, I'm cool with it. The biggest problem right now I have is being dehydrated. I'm supposed to drink 8 oz. an hour, and that's just not happening.

My mom has to leave tomorrow, and she said if I wasn't feeling better she's taking me with her. I'm not down with that...I can't imagine being in the car for 2 hours. But at the same time I can't imagine throwing up and not having someone here to hold my hair back. Ugh...this is what I was so afraid of!

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

The Long Story


Kim is tonsil and adnoid free!! And thank you Mom for the lovely picture! Haha!

Yesterday went very well. Mom and I showed up a few minutes early before my 6:45 check-in time. We only had to sit in the main waiting room for about 5 minutes before they came and got me to go to Pre-Op. They weighed me and then showed me to my little "room". I say it that way because it was beds in a line separated by curtains. I was in Room 13. Nice. They told me to change out of my clothes and put on the gown...and they reminded me that meant everything off! I changed and hopped up on my bed and Nurse #1 came. She introduced herself, took my blood pressure, and then tried to draw some blood. She tried to get the vein on the side of my wrist, but it kept rolling and she couldn't stab it. It really did hurt, and she kept apologizing, saying she didn't want to have to stab me again. I told her if this was the worst pain I felt all day, I'd be good. She chuckled and said, "No, it's going to get worse!" Aw! Finally she gave up on the wrist and then decided to try for a vein in the bend of my elbow, which she got in no time! She drew some blood and then started my IV of fluids. Which made me pee. A lot.

Once the IV was started Nurse #2 stopped by to give me an EKG. My blood pressure was up and they wanted to make sure the ol' ticker was in good shape. After she left Mom and I just sat there and chatted for awhile. Next the anesthesiologist came by to chat. He started on his little speech and said that they would have to insert a breathing tube and that may cause a sore throat. Then he looked up at me, then at my paperwork and we all laughed...yep, I was going to have a sore throat anyways! My ENT stopped by and introduced herself to my mom. She is a peppy woman!

The last few things I remember were Nurses #3 and #4 that got me all tucked in and covered in warm blankets. As they rolled me to the OR we dropped my mom off in the waiting room. I remember getting into the OR, seeing the big lights above me, and that was it! It was only 25 minutes between the time my mom left us for the waiting room and the time that the ENT went out to see her. The doc said it was the worst set of tonsils she's ever seen. That's pretty bad, considering I was feeling well when I went in! She also decided to take out my adnoids. She told Mom that this week would be rough week for me, but this time next month I should feel like a new person. It almost makes me tear up to say that...how many times have you heard me complain that I am sick and tired of feeling sick and tired!

I woke up in recovery, with Nurse #3 shaking my arm. She asked if I wanted a drink, but the first thing I did was stick out my tongue and make a wiping motion. It felt like it was covered in slime, but as soon as I wiped it off I felt better. She gave me a little cup of apple juice. I drank it down in no time, stopping to burp after every sip. Nurse #3 laughed and said either end I felt like getting the air out was fine with them! I did have one of those oxygen tubes in my nose, and as soon as I realized it she took it out. It was making my nose uncomfortable. After I finished my drink she asked if I was ready to see my mom, which I was. As soon as Mom walked in I started to cry. When Sexy Coworker had surgery he said he woke up feeling depressed. Guess I did too! I got dressed and had another few cups of apple juice while the nurse explained my post-op instructions. No alcohol (so I said shots tomorrow!), get lots of rest, drink at least 8 oz. of fluid each hour, and absolutely no dairy products for 24 hours! The reason is for some people it causes phlegm and I should do as much as possible to avoid coughing and/or clearing my throat.

I haven't been in much pain. Yesterday and still today one of the most uncomfortable things is that my uvula is swollen, which makes it feel like I have something in the back of my throat, and I so desperately want to clear it. I've been drinking almost nonstop, which is not only good that I'm getting in my 8 oz, but it also feels good. I haven't had much to eat. I can have stuff to eat, but no ice cream until later today and I can't have anything hot, just lukewarm. I've managed to eat some applesauce, a few popsicles, and some sorbet. I'm going to try some of the soup from chicken noodle soup later. I'm really surprised I haven't slept much. I do get tired, but I can't get comfortable. How do you snore with your mouth closed?! I keep waking myself up! But after all of this typing, I think I'll give it a another shot, my eyes are getting heavy!

Sunday, November 9, 2008

Getting Nervous



Well, tomorrow is the big day. I am ready to get this over with and for the next 2 weeks to go by. I'm not afraid or nervous about the surgery itself, but the way I'll feel afterward. A few posts I've read online say it's just like a bad sore throat when you're sick. One of my cousins had her tonsils out when she was 18, and she said it was the worst pain she's ever felt in her life. Gee...thanks for sharing that. I'm all stocked up on ice cream, popsicles, and Gatorade. I also have pudding, and even some tea to drink. The one constant thing I've seen online is to drink, drink, drink. Even one guy said that you're encouraged to sleep, but if you're sleeping you're not drinking, and drinking will do more to make you feel better. We'll see. Some of that drinking will be the drugs I'm taking. On the left is my antibiotic, Clindamycin. The drug facts on it are kinda scary! I could suffer severe digestive problems. I'll not go into details, but ew (paragraph 2). When the pharmacist was mixing it she said warned me that it smells like kitty litter. Yum! The other bottles are my mix of hydrocodone and acetaminophen. I'm a little worried that's going to have me knocked off of my rocker.

I did cry a little last night. I think it bothers me so much because the surgery is in my mouth. It's going to affect my eating and drinking. (Affect, right? Or is it effect? I never know!) Not only eating and drinking, but talking, swallowing, breathing! Let's just get this over with.

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

Everyone Else Is Doing It

So I decided to hop on the bandwagon and purchase a Guitar Hero game. A lot of my coworkers and friends have it and enjoy it, so I figured why not. I suck. Yep, I am not good at this game. Oh well, I know, it's going to take some practice. And larger hands might help - I have such short, fat fingers. I've just been doing the practice stuff so far (all 30 minutes that I've played), but I'm having a good time! Before you know it, I'll be playing an entire song on Easy hahahaa!

Huh, What?

I saw this article on MSN.com entitled "Why You Can't Pay Attention" and thought to myself, that would be a good article to read! I made it through the first two paragraphs and then my mind drifted off. If anyone wants to read it and give me a quick summary, that would be awesome!

Saturday, November 1, 2008

Spare Any Change?

Me: can you give a girl $91?
Me: I need to buy drugs
Me: actually, 1 drug
BagelDave: that's one helluva drug
Me: fucking antibiotic for post surgery
BagelDave: i can find pot, coke, crack, mushrooms, lsd, really anything you want for cheaper than that

So yep, I dropped off my prescriptions today for use after my tonsillectomy. Fortunately for me the pharmacy called before they filled it. The antibiotic I was given has no generic equivalent at the Target Pharmacy, so they decided to call and ask before they filling anything. They wanted to make sure I was okay with forking over $91. And what makes me even more lucky is that medicine only has a 10 day shelf life, so had they not called I would have shelled out all of that money for medicine that wouldn't be good by the time I need it. I was just shocked when she said $91 freaking dollars. My insurance is typically really good! For generics I only pay 10%, so in the case of my pain medication, it's only $8. My birth control pills...$1.81! Freaking sweet! There is a different antibiotic they can give me, but we need to check with the doctor first. The one concern the pharmacist had was that it's rougher on the stomach, and I am not down with the idea of vomiting. Stupid tonsils!

Thursday, October 30, 2008

Presents!

Look what I got in the mail today!



I checked my little mailbox yesterday and found a slip telling me I had a package that was too large to fit into my mailbox. Boy was I excited! I never get cool stuff in the mail. And I rarely have stuff shipped here if I order something, so I knew it wasn't something I bought. Turns out my aunt loves me! Thanks Auntie!

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

Already?




I admit, I'm one of those people that get depressed during the winter, with it's long, dark nights. I love being able to go out and take a walk after work, or heck, even just siting on my couch with the blinds open, letting the light in. Even nicer when I could have the windows opened slightly with the fresh air coming in. Maybe today's been the first day I've really noticed it, but it's so dark so early, and it's cold. The bad thing is I like the cold. Scratch that, I love the cold! I like my cold weather clothes, I like being able to snuggle up in my bed or on the couch with comfy blankets. Not today though...I feel depressed. Yay overwhelming feeling of sadness! Poor poor pitiful me! If this shit's starting this early it's going to be a long winter.

Not much else is going on...I do have a Halloween party to go to on Friday. I'm stoked. Oh man I wish you could hear the sarcasm, that would make this part so much better. I was looking forward to finding a costume and getting all dressed up, but screw that. I'm not in the mood. Heck, I have a delicious piece of apple pie waiting for me in my kitchen and I'm not in the mood for that either. Although I think I'd better eat it and hopefully enjoy it before I get all pissy and chuck it. I might regret that.

Friday, October 24, 2008

Under The Knife

Mark your calendar! The date is set! I'm not sure of the time, but I have the date set for November 10 for my tonsillectomy. The surgery is an outpatient procedure - show two hours before, leave one hour after. I will have to have someone stay with me for the first 24 hours. The next week is a liquid diet accompanied by liquid antibiotics and liquid narcotics. Week #2 is a soft diet. Woohoo!!

I must say, the appointment really did go well. It was quick, but incredibly informative and thorough. She discussed how things would go, the importance of why I should get them out. Did you know that your tonsils can play into sleep apnea? They touch together and block off your airway. It was funny, as soon as she looked in my mouth she exclaimed, "Why do you still have them!" I've been asking myself the same thing for years! And I have asked doctors about it before. One flat out said no, I should keep them because taking them out could cause more harm than good. The other two doctors seemed to have no opinion. Thanks for me making me suffer, jerkos. She also told me my overzealous tonsils could be the reason I'm so tired. My body's immune system is constantly working overtime to battle off infection, even when I think I feel well. She also said that the first week will be rough, there will be pain, but I should notice a big difference in how I feel after week 2. I'm not saying I'm excited to have the procedure done, but you know, it's going to be a good thing!

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

On Friday

So I have finally made an appointment with an ENT to get my tonsils checked out. My lovely coworkers have been coughing all over the place at work, and this morning I woke up with a bit of a sore throat. I've been putting it off because I've been feeling fine, but that little bit of pain this morning told me to quit being a pansy and call. I've even had a number for a few weeks now - Sexy Coworker gave me the number of his doctor, so it's not like I wasn't sure who to call. I'm just afraid. I was reading online that I might miss a week of work, have a nasty taste in my mouth, a lot of pain from my throat to my ear, blah blah blah. I'm a wuss, I know, I've said this all before. My appointment's at 2:00, and I'll be damned if I'm going to work when it's over. Woohoo!

Monday, October 20, 2008

Flowers

So I was reading a little article entitled "Lifesytle Shortcuts to Big Weight Loss" that I found through MSN.com. One of the shortcuts says that, "Research shows that women who are given flowers enjoy a more positive mood for a full 3 days after they receive them." I've never really stopped to think about it, but I do enjoy flowers for a few days. A few months ago I was having a lousy day at work, and a coworker of mine really was not helping. Finally, as a form of apology, he bought me some flowers from the Farmer's Market out at Moore Square. Those flowers lasted all week, and they really did make me feel happy. So pretty, sitting there on my desk. I smiled almost every time I looked at them!

I could have used some flowers to brighten my day yesterday. I was doing the dishes in the non-water conserving way...you know, just letting the water run as you wash. I felt my foot get wet, and I figured I must have splashed water up and onto the counter. I looked to see where it was running down the cabinet so I could wipe it up, and I didn't notice it. I could see it trickling by the corner of the cabinet door, but I still didn't see it running down the cabinets. Yep, there's the water just trickling out of the corner of the cabinet - WTF!?! I opened the cabinets and more water trickled out. The damn garbage disposal had detached from the bottom of the sink. The only reason it hadn't fallen off completely is because I had an old strainer under the sink and the disposal was resting on it. Nice. I guess there is an upside to renting. I have a nice new disposal, and aside from cleaning up the mess, I didn't have to do any work!



Isn't it pretty!

Thursday, October 16, 2008

Live Music

I must say, I love going to listen to live music. There's just something about being in the venue, whether it be outside in the fresh air or standing on tired feet packed like sardines in some small concert hall, that I enjoy. Something about being there, in person, seeing the artist perform, wonderful. Tonight I went with ECN and listened to Ray LaMontagne at the Meymandi Concert Hall in downtown. Let me say that (for the most part) a guy that can sing = hot. A guy that can play the guitar = hot. A guy that can sing and play the guitar = wicked hot. But a guy that can play the guitar and the harmonica, at the same time, holy crap! His voice is incredibly beautiful...a fantastic show! Whether he knows it or not, he will be singing me to sleep tonight!

There were a few things that drove me nuts, and it all relates to the people in the audience. Now I admit I'm addicted to my personal cellphone and my BlackBerry, almost to the point where I could be verging on the absurd side. But even I could sit there for 2 hours and not text/message/emai/call someone! Also, you're at a concert to listen to someone else's voice, so shut the hell up! Do you really need to sit there and carry on a conversation with the person next to you? With that being said, I still had a great time. Man, what a wonderful voice!

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

Awkward!

My mom and I were talking this morning on my ride to work, and she started telling me about this story she watched on "Good Morning America". Then she proceeded to tell me the cancer is spread via oral sex, and I should read the story. Whoa. Whoa! WHOA! My mom used the words "oral" and "sex" in a conversation with me. I should read the story! WOW. I know that I'm an adult, but my mom and I have never talked about anything in relation to sex or me dating. I did tell her once that I got back together with an old boyfriend, and her response was, "Why? Are you bored?" Haha nice one, Mom!

Not a whole lot else is going on, other than a very frustrating job. It's really been weighing me down lately. One thing that I could say about Old Job was that, while I hated what I was doing, I loved the people. I really really did, and I still do. I get to see those guys a lot, and I'm always happy to see them. Some mornings when I walk from my parking garage to the office I'll see an Old Coworker, and it always seems to start my morning off right. I don't know what it is right now, but even the coworkers at Current Job are driving me crazy. I made the comment today that I expect to get shit on by the client. I think that's actually a line item in my job description. But when it's your coworkers doing it too, that's not a good thing. I know that part of my problem is I need to learn to stand up for myself. Part of me just so desperately wants to avoid confrontation that I internalize a lot of my frustration, and then I'm the one that suffers. Or should I say suffers even more because I'm already frustrated to start. I think I don't handle confrontation well. Hell, I know I don't. When I get angry, I cry. No, I'm not upset, I'm that angry that it's either me crying or exploding into a little storm of hellfire and brimstone. Just thinking about work tomorrow makes me feel sick to my stomach.

I feel like it's little, insignificant things that are bothering me, but they're not so little when they start piling up. Right now I feel like I have the weight of the world on my back. Lately I come home and it hurts so much to put my arms straight out in front of me is all I can handle. To raise them up hurts. I don't know what else to do, other than hire a Swedish masseuse named Hans and have him waiting for me when I get home. Right in the middle of the back between the shoulder blades, yep Hans, that's the spot!

Saturday, October 11, 2008

A Good Afternoon

I didn't work doing my usual job today, I actually went out to another office and worked on equipment there. At one point I realized I was an incredibly happy and content person. I was in a good rhythm of preparing machines, chatting online with some friends, and listening to music. It really did hit me at one point just how happy I was, and I think the music was what made the biggest difference. A random mix of songs playing off of an ipod. I've tried to listen to music at work before, but it just doesn't work out - I have to hear the phone ring, and it's annoying to have calls interrupting one song every other 30 seconds. I think if I were in a position where I could listen to music more, what a happier person I'd be.

Thursday, October 2, 2008

Oh Yeah

So I did think this conversation was funny, between me and a coworker...
Him: Went to a crab shack the other day
Him: "Dirty Dicks"
Me: hahahah
Him: I could get shirts and stuff that said "I got crabs at Dirty Dicks"
Him: I was thinking of getting you all thongs that said that
but thought nope, not a good idea
Me: but it would be hilarious to those that have a sense of humor
Him: yeah, but on the other hand
Me: sensitivity training!
Him: what about the ones that say, "peel me, eat me" with little shrimps on the front? Still inappropriate???
Me: I'm still laughing
Me: what's wrong with peeling and eating shrimp?
Him: exactly

Rough Day

I was hoping that I'd have something good and exciting to talk about today, but nope. If you want, imagine me griping about work. Because that is something I could write about, but why bother. At least tomorrow's Friday, right?

Tuesday, September 30, 2008

Burn Baby

I don't remember a whole lot about my dream last night, other than I was at work and two men were standing at the entrance of shared my cubicle (it's not really a cubicle, there are three of us there) suggesting that we take home anything valuable. I shrugged off their suggestion, but they kept repeating it, and then one of the guys nodded to a little stuffed husky I have on my desk (it looks like Sable!) until I grabbed the toy in my arms. Later I realized that the two men were arsonists and they were going to burn down my office building. Hahha!

I'm going to break down and call an ENT tomorrow and talk them about getting my tonsils looked at. The last 2 days my throat has been a little sore at times. I was reading some of the post-op directions on a few different websites...man am I going to be miserable if they need to come out! I could end up missing 7-10 days of work (does that count weekends?), and also vomiting with streaks of blood is normal. Awesome! The sites also suggest drinking lots of fluids. The only thing that worries me about this is that I'm so bad about being sick and drinking. I hate getting that yucky taste in my mouth that ruins the flavor of everything. Booo!

Sunday, September 28, 2008

Good Dream?

Usually when I dream about fighting with someone, I wake up upset and I carry that feeling with me for the rest of the day. Not this time. I had a dream that I got into an argument with a coworker from Old Job. Now this coworker is a Downer-Debbie kind of person. In my dream my boss asked me to work on fixing a wireless connection on a laptop, and as soon as I started to move the mouse and look at what was going on, Downer-Debbie was standing over my shoulder telling me what I should be doing. I tried to explain what he was telling me was already what I had planned on doing, yet he still acted like a backseat driver. I lost my temper, got up, and all but threw the laptop at him, yelling that if he knew so much, he should fix it. Nevermind that Boss had asked me to work on it, knowing that I was already knee deep in another project. I was dropping f-bombs left and right, madder than Hell, not giving a care in the world that the owner of the laptop was right there, witnessing the entire incident. And instead of being upset, I felt great. And I still feel great! What a good start to my day.

Friday, September 26, 2008

So Immature

So I went to ESPN.com earlier and found myself laughing out loud at the headline. I swear, sometimes I'm like a 12 year old boy laughing because he just heard the word "boobies".

Thursday, September 25, 2008

Stupid Pregnancy Dream

Yet again, I had another dream I was pregnant. I guess I can't complain, I haven't had one lately. All I really remember was that I was walking through the mall with a friend of mine, and we bumped into another friend of ours and her mother. Now, in real like I know this second friend is pregnant, and that's news I found out recently. But we all stopped and talked for a bit, and then everyone noticed I was pregnant. I don't know if I was embarrassed or ashamed, but when they noticed, all I wanted to do was crawl under a rock and hide. My uncomfortable feelings didn't last long - as I was standing there fidgeting, I suddenly felt physically uncomfortable. Not to be gross, but it was almost like a heavy day on my period, the feeling of needing to change a tampon before an accident happens. Then it hit me, I shouldn't be having that feeling if I'm pregnant. Was I about to have a miscarriage? I stood there with the ladies still chatting away, my face turning white and tears in my eyes. Without saying anything to them, I broke away from the group and started to make my way to...somewhere, (the bathroom maybe?) then I woke up.

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

Phew!

When I first got a checking account my mom taught me how to use the statement and balance it, down to the penny. Over the years I've kept up with keeping it balanced, and if it's not, it drives me nuts. I want to balance down to the last cent. I'll admit though, over the last few months I've been pretty slack, and I haven't balanced it in awhile. Yep, need to get back in the habit because I made a little boo-boo, which could have resulted in an overdraft charge. Lucky for me I had some extra money "hidden" in there, which I ended up having to spend. D'oh! I did get some good news...I submitted my claim a few weeks ago to get reimbursed for having my wisdom teeth taken out. Guess who got a check in mail today! Couldn't have come at a better time!

Oh, today was a pretty good day at work. Hank wasn't there. From the moment I got out of bed this morning I knew it was going to be a good day without him there - purely because he wasn't there. Terrible that we have to have coworkers like that. I have made a new friend at work. He doesn't work in the same area as me, but we get to chat it up on Sametime. We were chatting about where to out (he's somewhat new in town) and I made a comment that, when I reread it, made me sound like a drunk. He said my comment was fine, so long as I wasn't 30. What it young whipper snapper! Almost, but not quite - yet!

Saturday, September 20, 2008

Football!

A few days ago a friend of mine mentioned that he knows a guy that has some extra Carolina Panthers tickets available for all home games, and he's selling them. I'd love to go to a Panthers game this year. I've been to at least one game for the past, I dunno, 4 or 5 years. Good times!

Thinking about those tickets definitely played into my dream last night. I dreamt about going to a game, but it certainly wasn't down in Charlotte. It's almost like the stadium was up in Boone, the size and the shape were very similar to the way things looked when I was at App. I was there with a bunch of coworkers, and one of the guys, EvilBoss, was able to get us into the stadium quicker because he knew a secret entrance, all we had to do was go as a group because the line didn't allow for individuals. Also, as we were going through the line we were given some type of Panther paraphernalia, a t-shirt, towel, etc. When we finally made it into the stadium, the arguing started. There was no assigned seating (as the seats weren't individual seats but more like bleachers), and no one could agree on where to sit. Someone didn't want to sit too close to the marching band because they're loud and annoying. Someone else didn't want to sit too far to one end of the stadium because then it would be hard to see when play was the other end. It made me think of us trying to decide on where we want to go to lunch. That's a battle on a daily basis. Anyways, the dream ended with me sitting there getting pissed because no one agree on where to sit and the game was starting. I woke up all balled up and laying on top of one of my arms, and it was completely numb. Oh the pins and needles when it woke up!!

Oh...I'm thinking the odds of the Panthers starting this season 3-0 are very, very good! Everyone should be watching tomorrow!

Friday, September 19, 2008

Good Job

EPSN's Page 2 has an article on America's 100 most important sports venues and yay the Panther's made the list:
46. Bank of America Stadium
Location: Charlotte, N.C. Opened: 1996. Capacity: 73,904.

Because this stadium is widely credited as the first built with one of the most noxious trends in sports, the personal seat license, in which you have to pay through the nose just for the right to buy an overpriced ticket.
How awesome is that!

If you're wondering what was #1 - it's Yankee Stadium. Oh, BagelDave, Cameron Indoor Stadium made the list at #58, and for you Carolina Fans, the Dean Smith Center was #90.

Thursday, September 18, 2008

Get Over It

Yesterday I mentioned that there was some petty shit going on at work, but what I didn't mention is that me and my 2 coworkers were going to have a meeting about it with our boss and our boss's boss today. Every time I thought about the meeting I just got annoyed. "What a waste!" I kept thinking to myself. And it was. Jackass coworker, who I'll call Hank, it just worthless. Not just worthless as a coworker, but pretty much worthless as a person. Now I know what you're thinking, those are pretty harsh and hateful things for me to say, but it's not just me that feels that way. My anger was far more apparent than I realized, but I sat through the meeting saying very little. Seriously, why bother, it wouldn't do any good. The meeting wasn't about things like, "hey, I feel like I'm doing more of xyx than the next person, " it was about Big Brother's way of doing what they need to do for appearances sake.

After the meeting ended my boss asked if we could speak privately. Boss mentioned that my unhappiness was obvious, and also included that the topics discussed in the meeting were not directed at me, but Hank couldn't be singled out. Yes, it is Hank that's the problem, but there's not a lot one can do about a person that's an ass. And I know Boss is right, but that doesn't help me. I feel like I can't roll with the punches on this one. Why does Hank get to make everyone else suffer and get away with it? Why do assholes get their way? Yes, again, I realize that's life, but that doesn't make it any easier to swallow.

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

Plays Well With Others

I'm not sure what's up with me, but I've been a bitter person at work lately. Actually, I do know what's up. I have one coworker that's just a...he's a, uh, well... hmm...man he's such as ass. No one likes him. No one. I'd rather it be slammed busy and him out then to have it quiet with him there. When he is out, it's like the boss is out for the day - there's just a different feeling in the air. That uncomfortable, stressed, aggravating feeling is gone! And there's all sorts of little petty shit going on lately, one of which being lunchtimes and good phone coverage. My job requires that there be people to man the phones...I have no problem with that. I do have a problem with you turning your 45 minute lunchbreak into an hour and a half and me sitting there tethered to my desk, starving. You know what, I'm almost so mad thinking about it right now I don't know how to put all of my frustration into words. There are 3 of us that do the same job. If one person's out (sick, vacation, midday quickie with a hooker, whatever), that means there are just two left. And with just two people there are going to be times when there are only one. It's going to happen, people just need to deal. I don't get why one person being there for 20 minutes alone is such a big damn deal. Because of some training, I spent the entire day Friday working alone. By myself. With no one else. And did anyone in management care then that I was alone. All day. For over 8 hours?! NO. There's more to this story, but again, just so aggravated I can't get it all out. I just know that thanks to AssMan my nice happy job is rapidly going to shit. Why doesn't he quit already? That would make everyone happier.

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

Hard At Work?



*Please keep in mind that the camera adds at least 10 pounds*

Big Day

So tomorrow's a big day for people going to see people in the medical profession! I did have a doctor's appointment, but it was just more of a "Hi, how's it going?" kind of thing. Screw that, I've seen you people enough lately. Canceled that shit. My grandmother also has a doctor's appointment. Probably something pretty similar to mine, only she's actually going. Good for you, Grandma! A coworker is starting his day at the chiropractor. Are those people real doctors? I dunno..never been to one. Also, I know of 2 people going under the knife! I hope for speedy recoveries for the both of you. And SOMEONE (hint hint) better keep me updated on how they're doing! It's bad enough I had to hear about the news second hand...wtf?! I thought we were close! Nah, I guess I can understand not saying anything...but it's me! I'll tell you when (if) I get my tonsils taken out! True, you and everyone else. What's your point?

I've been thinking about that...I need to call an ENT. No need to wait until there's a problem again. I just don't want to do it! I don't want someone hacking my tonsils out...that's going to interfere with me eating. I don't like it when I can't eat. True, I can have lots of ice cream, but I can have lots of ice cream now! Mmm...food (except canned peas...that's disgusting). And it's not just that I don't want the procedure done, and having to recover, I don't even want to go and talk to someone. Yes, I know I need to, and in the end I'm sure things will turn out for the better (otherwise I might go postal on some doctors - do you people hate me that much?!), but I hate going to the doctor. Hate hate hate it! I don't want you touching me. I don't even want to have to call your office and make the appointment. Now I'm all bent out of shape just thinking about it. What if they decide I should keep them? That seems just as bad as them coming out!

Sunday, September 14, 2008

Dreaming About A Baby

I was talking to a friend last night, saying how I hoped I'd be able to sleep in this morning. I don't know what's up with me, but I'm incapable of sleeping in. I don't understand how during the week I get ripped out of sleep when my alarm goes off, yet on the weekend my little eyeballs pop right open at almost the exact time I'd be getting out of bed. I wonder, am I paranoid that I'm about to sleep through my alarm? I don't get it. Well, this morning I did manage to sleep in some, but now I'm kind of wishing I had gotten up early.

No, it wasn't another dream where Kim was pregnant. And by the way, I've probably said this before, but that's not a dream, it's a nightmare! The dream started off kind of normal...I was up in Massachusetts and out shopping with my cousin Justine. Justine and I talked recently about me heading up North, so I can see why she showed up (miss you!). As we were out I got a phone call that it was time, the baby was being born. What confuses me is I'm not sure whose baby, and suddenly I was at a hospital in NC and Justine was gone. My mom and my brother were there, but I still can't figure out why they had interest in this baby. The mother of the kid was giving her up for adoption, and it's like she had the baby and was ready to roll out and just leave the kid behind - didn't even need any more medical attention because she was doing fine. The baby on the other hand was wicked tiny, she didn't even look like she was ready to be here. I remember holding her, choking back tears because she was so tiny, her little legs barely larger than one of my fingers. The rest of the dream was about finding parts to make sure she would work properly, like she was a little machine that needed some upgrades.

There's so much more detail that I remember, but it's just the feelings that go with it all that have started off my morning on the wrong foot. I can't tell you how much I hate this - none of that was real, so that stressed, upset feeling I have? Get over it! There's no reason for it. That sinking feeling in my stomach that I get when upset...move on out! No need!! Again, I'm going to complain, why can't I just go to sleep and sleep? Why can't there be a way for my brain to just keep my heart beating, lungs breathing, etc, and have that just be it? It's a no wonder I'm so tired...

Friday, September 12, 2008

You Like?

For awhile now that pink background was driving me a little nutty - just too bright for me, and I do love pink! And while I like a good retina-burning as much as the next person, it was too much. And recently a new reader, EvilCoworker, came across my little corner of the Internet, and quite frankly, I felt embarrassed. Like having company over when the house is a wreck! I figured I had to do something to clean this place up! So...you guys like the new colors? I kept the some of the pink, and on EvilCoworker's suggestion I added some gray. I was thinking blue (or purple, that's my favorite), but the gray really does look good. And do you know what I just realized...I have a pair of shoes that have gray, light pink, and a little reddish/maroon color in them. No wonder I like it so much!

Wayne

I don't talk about my dad much, kind of because there's no reason to. We don't get along that well...it usually doesn't take more than 5 minutes before one of us is pissed at the other. We don't have anything in common, and conversation doesn't flow very well between us. Heck, I haven't called him "dad" in a long time. I always think of the episode of "The Simpsons" where Homer keeps trying to get Bart to call him dad but Bart just keeps saying "Homer!" Well, Wayne did call tonight, catching me on my ride home from work. He was in Durham at a big truck shop, and he was wondering if I wanted to grab dinner before he headed out. Like a good daughter, I did agree. While I was waiting for him to show up at my place, I called my brother just to catch up. As we were talking I heard someone knock on my neighbor's door. I told my brother I'd better look out the peephole and make sure it wasn't Wayne. Yep, there was my father knocking on the wrong door. I've only lived here how long?

Thursday, September 11, 2008

Awesome Show

I just got done watching Fringe on Hulu. Wow! Yes, Kim will definitely be DVRing that show. I am a fan of Lost, and one of the guys at work said that if I liked that show I would like Fringe. I can see similarities...you can tell that J.J. Abrams has his hand in both. But don't mistake that for me complaining! Man, I want to watch it again! Although the beginning was a bit disgusting...a dude threw up on a lady, and it looked like he got vomit in her mouth. AUGH! I wish I could have a serious conversation about the show, but I feel like an excited little kid that just can't sit still and form coherent sentences!

Let's see...everything else is going fine. Work's work. I'm feeling better. Although every now and then I feel like I look a little pink in spots, but that's only in my head, I know that!

Sunday, September 7, 2008

Normal?

Things with me are back to normal! At least when it comes to my itchy/splotchy/sore throat sporting self. I guess that's what a buttload of drugs will do! I'm not complaining though! It's nice to look down and not see any pink or red anywhere. It's definitely made this weekend a lot better than last weekend. I was not at all about going out, even though I didn't feel that bad, just looking not so hot made me want to curl up on the couch and stay there. So I did. And having a taste of a fun weekend out makes me want to go out more next weekend! Yay! Is it Friday yet?

Thursday, September 4, 2008

Feeling Good

Just a quick update before football starts (WOOHOO!!!) - I'm feeling pretty good right now!! I got a steroid shot in the rear today, and within 20 minutes to the urge to kill had subsided. I am still a little itchy, but you can barely see the pink splotchy areas. I think it's just my legs and arms that have the faint splotch - my belly's back to it's normal color! Man I am so much happier. I'm on another round of prednisone pills, for 12 days instead of 6, so hopefully this will finally get me over this. I'm also taking a new antihistamine. Yay! Life is good!

Wednesday, September 3, 2008

Rough Week

Man, this week hasn't really been my week. I'm off the steroids for my rash, and I itch like hell. It really drives me nuts when I get into a comfy position and then the itching starts. I suppose I might go back to the doctor tomorrow. I'm popping Benadryl like candy. I remember back in the day I would take a dose and it would knock me the hell out. Nope, not anymore. Now it just does nothing.

Work's been wicked busy the last 2 days. We're implementing new password requirements which is messing up everyone. At least 8 characters, one uppercase letter, one lowercase letter, a number, a symbol, can't be a dictionary word, can't have a repeating character, blah blah blah. Like people can't remember their passwords as it is...oh well, maybe now they'll write them down and post them by their computer!

Monday, September 1, 2008

Just Thought Of Something

I just realized....this time next week we'll all be enjoying some Monday Night Football on ESPN!! How awesome is that!! And we'll be enjoying it after watching a day full of football. And as a special treat we'll be able to watch the Giants play against the Redskins this coming Thursday. That's only 3 days away! Holy crap I am so excited football season is starting!

Happy 3 Day Weekend!

I hope everyone's having an enjoyable long weekend! I'm not. Haha it's just the hives that are driving me nuts. They are getting better, it's just taking time - and I have no patience. The color has really died down, and right now I just feel itchy. I keep putting lotion on ("It rubs the lotion on its skin..."), and that does help. It just sucks that I'm not 100% yet. It's made me not want to go out and do anything. I'd really like to take advantage of this nice weather and go out and do something, but when I get hot the itchy gets worse. Oh well....I guess being uncomfortable at home is better than being uncomfortable at work!

Thursday, August 28, 2008

Guess Who Went To The Doctor?

If you guessed me, you'd be right! I swear if I have to go to the doctor one more freaking time in the next month I'm just going to lose my shit and shove someone in front of a bus. The other night I felt itchy, but I didn't think anything of it. Not sure if I need to even now. Last night my throat hurt just a little bit. This morning I woke up and felt ok, but when I was using the bathroom I happened to notice some red spots on my legs. To me it almost looked like razor burn, but I haven't shaved lately. Then I happened to notice the same spots on my tummy, then on my chest. Fucking super. And my throat felt a little tight (although that might be in my head, just me being paranoid). I headed back to the doctor and was told to stop the antibiotic immediately, and to cross it off the list of future drugs. So no penicillin, no amoxicillin. Lesson learned. So now I'm on steroids to clear up my spots. And I have another pill to again prevent the yeast infection I don't have - yet. Sigh...I can't wait until my poor little body is back to normal!

Tuesday, August 26, 2008

So Much For Good Day #2

Well, dammit, I was hoping today would have been as good of a day today as it was yesterday. No such luck. I spent the first 3 hours of today in pain and nauseous. Unfortunately the antibiotics I'm on upset my tummy, and also it apparently means I'll have a a buildup of gas in there. (TMI you say? Quit reading then!) I would have given anything to burp or fart, seriously. I ended up getting some ginger ale from the convenience store down the street, and I spent my entire walk ripping burps that would have made Homer Simpson proud. It helped me feel better!

Let's see, what else sucked...got my cell phone bill. People - quit calling me. The bill is $145. That's almost DOUBLE what it should be. And Verizon, thanks for sticking it to me when I go over. I love it when my ass burns like that. Ok, I guess that last comment was a little much. But I feel like you can't win for losing lately.

Did I tell you guys I got a check from the insurance company about my car? Yep, they paid what my estimate said it would cost. I'm thinking about not getting the scratches fixed. Well, at least not any time soon. If the ENT says the tonsils need to come out, I have no clue how much that'll cost me. I will say my health insurance is pretty dope, but I've not had to use it to have any worthless, troublesome body parts removed. We'll see how that goes....

Monday, August 25, 2008

Ah, A Good Day

Man, today was a great day! It was busy aas heck today at work. Most people that called had the same problem - "I was on vacation and now that I'm back I've forgotten my password." Damn, does everyone go on vacation at the same time? But it resulted in a ton of wicked easy calls for me, so I can't complain! I was looking at the tickets I closed out today, and I had 18 tickets more than my closest coworker. Not that it's a competition or anything, but I was seriously kicking some ass today! I hope this is an indication of a good week to come. I have a free day on Friday, which means I do still have to go to work, but I'm not doing my job. Awesome! I get to go hang out with someone else on another team.

You know, I thought I had more to talk about than this. I don't know if I've distracted myself by puttering around the apartment and doing other stuff or what, but oh well. Here's hoping Tuesday was as awesome as Monday!

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

Odds Are...

I can't remember if I mentioned it, but earlier this month I headed to the doctor because my throat was bothering me. It was a little on the sore side, and knowing me, if I didn't get things looked at, it would probably get a lot worse. They diagnosed me with acute tonsillitis and acute pharyngitis. Yep, nothing cute about either one of those. I was given some antibiotics and sent on my merry way. Well, things never really got better, and there were days I even felt worse. Today I was trying to eat lunch and I was having a hard time swallowing my food, all because one of my tonsils was swollen, making it feel like I have a ping-pong ball suck in my throat. Now that just pisses me off...it doesn't hurt, but dammit, it's getting in my way of enjoying food, and this girl loves to eat. So I headed back to the doctor and he decided to prescribe me a stronger antibiotic. I'm allergic to penicillin, and we did talk about that for a few minutes. The doctor asked how I knew, and honestly the only reason I know is because of what my mom told me. I was given penicillin once when I was little and I broke out in hives. The doc said based on that, he wouldn't prescribe penicillin, but he would prescribe something from the same family. The odds of me going into anaphylactic shock were incredibly slim. Now I know there are all sorts of side effects that can come up from taking medication, but even mentioning anaphylactic shock - wow. Even the pharmacist called to make sure that my doctor and I had talked about the amoxicillin I was prescribed and my allergy before the prescription was filled. Thank you Target Pharmacy for looking out for me!! I did promise that if I broke out in hives again I would discontinue the use of the medicine.

So the doctor also suggested I consider seeing an Ears, Nose, & Throat Specialist (any recommendations?) to consider having my tonsils taken out. He said for a person my age, my tonsils are gigantic, even when they're at their normal size. They're probably more of a problem than they're worth. You know, one of my coworkers was making fun of me and himself the other day. He said we were both battling bugs that little kids normally get (he had pink eye). Yep, so my little kid problems persist, and now I'm getting my tonsils out. Probably. What's next, tubes in my ears?

Sunday, August 17, 2008

I Love DVR

I know I've talked about it before, but I honestly think DVR is one of the greatest inventions ever. I've spent a good part of my weekend catching up on Burn Notice. And if I thought I disliked commercials before DVR, it's only gotten worse since. Now even if I'm home and can watch a show, I don't. I record it and then watch it a little later so I can fast forward. I love you DVR.

I wish I had something exciting to talk about. Oh, I did go and see Journey, Heart, and Cheap Trick in concert last weekend. I got a free ticket through work and went with a bunch of coworkers. It really was a good time! Let's see, what else...went bowling last night...that was fun too! But man, that was expensive! Next time we said we should invade someone's house and Wii Bowl. It'll be a bit cheaper.

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

Too Early To Be Excited

I walked out of work yesterday afternoon and was amazed at how wonderful the air felt. It didn't feel humid, there was a nice breeze blowing...man I can't wait for Fall. I even went home and turned off my AC and opened the windows for a bit to let some fresh air in. Did I mention I'm excited for Fall? Even walking out this morning it was nice & cool. This happens every year...August rolls around, kids start going back to school, football season starts, and I want cool weather. But it's like I expect it too soon! I need to remember back into the days of high school sweating my ass off in the marching band. That lasted a few weeks before freezing my ass of started. Remember Kim, remember!!

Tuesday, August 5, 2008

WTF


Okay, so I don't know what's up with me trying to publish a post through Picasa, but it never works. So here's your picture. Fabulous!

Monday, August 4, 2008

Here You Go!

Okay, even though it's against my better judgement, here is a picture of me in the dress! Regardless of what you might think, I think I look meh. It's not a bad picture (thanks for taking it BagelDave), but I don't think it's a really good picture either. The photographer did a great job taking it, even though he was a bit intoxicated, I just don't think he had a good subject. I swear I never take good pictures. Ugh!

 


The wedding was a great time! A very lovely ceremony and a tasty reception. It was at a Dim Sum restaurant. Oh man that food was sooo good. Fried rice, chicken & vegetables, lobster, duck...mmmm so good.

You know, I was thinking to myself earlier that I do have things I want to pass on here. Not really big things, just somewhat interesting things that happened to me during the day, but I am too damn lazy to post it. How sad am I? I really do think a lot of it boils down to being in front of the pc all day long, and when I get home I don't feel like sitting in front of one all night. But no one says I have to get on here and write a book. Just hop on, make my little post, and then hop off. Done!

Oh! BagelDave and I did have a near death experience on our return trip from the wedding. Okay, okay, it wasn't that bad. We were behind a truck that was towing another truck on a trailer, and I thought to myself I don't feel like following along behind these guys, so I moved over into the left-hand lane to pass them. I was still behind the truck when BOOM! One of the truck's tires blew out! Nothing serious happened to them or us, just a spray of rocks & dirt. Dave kind of chuckled and me, well, I was sitting there tears burning in my eyes and a heart that wasn't beating. That incident totally scared the shit out of me! But like I said, we made it through unscathed, aside from some slightly dampened britches. Heheh just kidding about the pants!

Sunday, July 27, 2008

What Else...

I do realize I haven't been around much lately. I'm not sure what my deal is, but I'm not upset about anything, and I'm not trying to avoid you guys, I just don't have anything all that exciting to talk about. Also, I think part of it is just sitting at a desk all day at work, and I don't want to do it when I get home. I have been trying to walk more lately. I am 3 pounds away from weighing under 120 pounds. WOW! There's a little part of me that's become excited about seeing that number on the scale. Excited, but not obsessed. But it does motivate me to walk more. It's funny, there are a lot of evenings I get out there hot and mad and not wanting to walk, but by the end I'm quite happy and almost sad that it's time to go home. What else...I haven't really been looking at houses much lately. I guess that is something that's kind of bothering me. I've come to realize where I live now is not somewhere I can continue to live, and that saddens me. (Unless someone has a huge chunk of cash they're willing to give me!) I like where I live, but unless I get a sugar daddy or someone else contributing their income, I just can't afford it. Bummer. I really like my neck of the woods. What else...saw The Dark Knight twice, once at the imax theater downtown...what an awesome movie! I would also like to see the second Hell Boy movie. Sometime soon maybe.

Stupid Dress


Well, BagelDave and I are heading out of town next weekend to go to a wedding of a coworker. And of course, I have nothing to wear. Well, had nothing until yesterday. I found the above dress at JCPenney. I don't know if I like it. I think there's that part of me that NEVER dresses up, so when I do I always feel like I look goofy. Another coworker and I were supposed to go shopping today, but she had family in town and I didn't want to bug her, but I think I'll ask her if she wants to go later this week just to make sure there's nothing else out there that might look better.

Sunday, July 20, 2008

I'm Still Here!

Anybody miss me? I think I heard a "yes" from the crowd. Woohoo! I know I haven't been around much lately, and part of it's laziness. A week ago Wednesday I came home and my cable was out due to bad weather. Since I'm not really sure why I own a computer other than to look at things on the Internet, I decided to turn the pc off. And it's stayed off until today. Wow. Now I have checked my email from work, but I haven't done much else. I have missed reading about all of you guys, but for some reason, the thought of coming home and sitting down and being in front of the computer was so incredibly unappealing. I did have good intentions of sitting down and filling you guys in on what's going on with me, but it's going to have to wait for a little bit. I've got a terrible headache at the moment, so I think I'll go sit on the couch for a bit!

Monday, July 7, 2008

Mini-Update

So I went and stopped by the parking people office to talk about my car. I think the lady I was talking to might have been on drugs because I told her what happened and she said, "Ok, that's nice" and then kind of stared at me for a second before asking someone else what to do. That's nice? I mean, I'm sure she was just responding to acknowledge that I had just said something, but "that's nice"? I dunno...that just struck me funny. But she took down my info and had one of the big dogs give me a call. He was really nice, talking about having an adjuster person look at it. So things were relatively painless, but I just stress over stuff like this. The adjuster person is supposed to call me this week, and the guy on the phone was extremely nice, telling me that if they didn't call by Friday I need to call him and let him know. I just hope I don't have to! Adjuster person, just call me ok? Don't give my mind another reason to spaz out.

Sunday, July 6, 2008

This Sucks

 

 

 

I don't know how much justice the picture is going to do, but man am I pissed. Those are the scratches that the gate in the parking garage left when it came down prematurely and whacked my car. And that's the second time I've been hit! The first time I didn't care, it just scratched the black paint off of the windshield wiper on the back of my car. This I'm not so happy about it. And I hate confrontation. I just am not looking forward to going to talk to the parking people. Ugh. I don't to talk about this anymore.

What else is going on....went by myself to Fox & Hound last night to watch the UFC fight. Wow that place was packed! I ended up asking three guys in a booth if I could sit with them. They were nice and said it was fine. Didn't really talk to them much else. Let's see....no fireworks for me this year. My old roommate and I did try and go watch them on Friday night. Darn you rain! I feel like it's rained a lot on the weekends this year, but not so much during the week. I can't really focus right now...thinking about the whole car thing makes my tummy turn. :-(
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Sunday, June 29, 2008

Stop Procrastinating!

I should be working on my self-review for work, but I just can't seem to focus. Or maybe it's not that I can't focus, I just have a piss poor attitude about it. My job is basically the same thing every day - honestly, it doesn't vary much. That saying, same shit different day, yep, that's my job. I'm not complaining that it can be redundant, but good grief, that doesn't give a girl a lot to write about. I look at some of the items and think, well I must be "technically competent" at it because I haven't been fired yet. I use good customer service skills, by hmm, well I do this by not swearing and yelling at the customer. The griping could go on and on but well, I need to get back to work. I've only had 3 weeks to work on this, it's due tomorrow, and out of almost 30 items I've managed to address 2 of them. It feels like homework. Blech.

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

Nomophobia

Just received this month's issue of Wired magazine in the mail. I've got to be honest, I love this magazine. My subscription first started as a gift from a friend, but I had to continue it on my own when the gift ran out. I really do love this magazine. Each month they have a little section called "Jargon Watch". One of this month's words is nomophobia, which is short for no-mobile phobia. The magazine states that:
"it's the anxiety produced by losing cell phone contact, for lack of coverages or power. A recent survey in the UK estimates that half of its citizens are afflicted. The condition is said to be as stressful as a root canal."
Now, I've never had a root canal, but (and I've even said it on here) that I am lost without my cell phone. I've left it at home a few times when I've run out the door, and there's a little part of me that worries if I should turn around and grab it. What if I have car trouble? What if I need help? What if someone text messages me!? The only time I truly feel better when I leave it is when I've got the work phone with me. How sad am I?

Sunday, June 22, 2008

Long Time No See

Wow, I haven't written on here in awhile! I have had some wild dreams that I've wanted to share. I would remember them when I woke up, but I'd forget them by the time I got in front of my computer. Oh well, I'm sure you're disappointed. What else has been going on...work is work. I did play tennis on Friday night. Wow, I am pathetic! My body is still so tired. My right forearm is sore! I was able to run around a lot more than I thought I would. Sometimes I really do amaze myself. My best friend Jackie came up yesterday and stayed the night with me. That was awesome! It's been quite some time since she's been here. I was telling her I didn't care what we did when she came up, even if we just sat on opposite ends of the couch and stared at each other all evening, I was just so happy that she would be in town. But we did more than just sit around the apartment. We had dinner Ben's Place, stopped by Woody's in City Market, and then headed over to Alibi. I've only been to that bar twice. First time it was pretty empty. Last night was way different. Apparently that was the ending point for the Raleigh Typhoon (which I think is a big scavenger hunt). Some folks wearing Appalachian State University t-shirts won. Go Mountaineers!! And there was a lot of break dancing going on. Yep, I stayed seated. No one was going to see my lack of rhythm. What else has been going on...not much. Watching some tv, walking through the neighborhood in the evening...that's about it! Ooo! I did have lunch with BagelDave one day. Man, that was so awesome! It's the first time we've done something like that since I left Old Job. I certainly hope we do that again!